The Blog of Amber

Happy New Year!

Last years New Years Resolution has successfully been achieved. It took about half a year but I met my goal which was to be happy. This year I will focus on not caring about what people think about me, exercising more and eating better, and saving up money. I have a wedding to save up for although this wedding will be as cheap as possible. There's alot to think about on that subject which I don't really feel like thinking about..mostly because of the money issue.

I had a lady rudely yell at me at work today. Now she probably feels like an idiot. And apparantly the flu shot hurt the bih. That makes me happy. What a great start to the year.

Christmas

I don't really like updating my blog anymore but I suppose I still will.

This Christmas has been the best one I can ever remember having. I'm not used to such large get togethers so it was fun to have so many people there. I enjoyed myself very much on Christmas Eve and loved having everyone there to enjoy the day with. I also loved all of my gifts but I think I like watching people unwrap the gifts I give them more that unwrapping my own. I wish I could have gotten everybody better stuff but I suppose I did okay for the little money I had to spend.

On Christmas day, Ryan and I spent some time with his family and their new puppy (who I am in love with). We opened presents and had a yummy breakfast then went out to play in the snow! That is the first time I can remember actually playing in snow and sledding down a hill. It snowed allll day and was really beautiful, except for when my car got stuck...that was not cool.

I get depressed after family goes back home, I wish everyone lived here. :( However, I am lucky to have the ones who do live here! I am hoping they will keep me lots of company for the next four months while I am missing Ryan bunches.

 

Life is too short, so kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truly and forgive quickly.
- Author Unknown

HAPPY New Year

So it's a New Year and I'm going to try to make some new resolutions. I am going to eat healthier and try to exercise more (the Wii Fit might be able to help with that). I am going to stay more organize and clean more, at work and at home. I would say I am already well organized and clean quite a bit but I will have to work harder at it now that I'm living with a boy. It's tough work. I am going to give my all at my job and hope that it gives me something in return. These past couple of months I've been feeling really frustrated with my job therefore not caring as much, but I will attempt to work harder and will even follow the dress code. I am going to focus on what I want to do with my life and stop wasting time. Hopefully by next summer I will know what I want with school and life and will be able to pursue whatever I decide.

But my main goal for this new year is to be happy. I have been sad for quite some time now and spent the last few months moping over something stupid. I think it is time to accept it, move on, and be happy. I've tried this a few times over the past 6 months but it was ultimately a failure. My resolution is also a failure since I've already cried twice in the new year. I need more help. I need something. I feel like everything is building up inside of me waiting to be let out but it's stuck inside. I need to find a way to let it out and keep it out. I've not found that yet. I just need to find a way to be happy but I need someone to guide me. I feel so lost. I don't feel like myself anymore.

I have alot to work on. I'm going to get there though. I am going to have a happy year.

If you want to be happy, be!
A happy life consists not in the absence, but in the mastery of hardships.
Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it.
Pain is inevitable, but misery is optional.