I wish I could be able to talk to someone about everything I'm feeling and thinking. I try to talk to Ryan but it's hard for him to understand. He tries, which I appreciate, but he just doesn't get it. I really want to be able to communicate more but I need to be understood. I want a psychiatrist.. I don't think I need one but it would be so great to just lay on a couch and spill my guts out to some random person. I dunno... I will continue to try to talk to Ryan...he's such a boy though. I'm starting a journal with all my crazy thoughts..I think I'll let him read it eventually. I know things will be better soon but there is still alot that needs to be worked on. It's taking forever!!!
Anyway, I'm going to California in July. Kinda crazy..but I'm just going for the ride. I guess I'm pretty excited. If I can get over my fear of people before that I think I'll be more excited. Only two more weeks of school, I'm pretty sure I'm going for Radiography. As for work...things were looking up for a little bit there..but the hours have gone down again. If I could have my relationship to work smoothly, school figured out, and work to not suck, things would be so amazing! I have hope that these three things will be perfected soon! Law of attraction right? Time to read a certain book again!
Forgiving
does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted
memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to
remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future.
- Louis B. Smedes
He who cannot forgive breaks the bridge over which he himself must pass.
- George Herbert
The Dr. is always in.
Posted by: Luvin it! | 04/19/2010 at 01:40 PM